Thursday, October 26, 2006
Invictus - W.E Henley
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
brin bit this at ; 12:40 PM
wah damn tired. and before ya continue reading lemme just warn you its mere ranting ahead. nothing interesting.
one whole day of mugging at the nlb. i would tell you about it but im lazy and if i continue to strain my fingers they may get sore. and when they get sore there'll be like ugly boils and warts and bad shit like that. plus, im like so effing irritated with someone right now it friggin sucks. it take just ONE PERSON to spoil your perfectly regular day. things were okay today. ya know, mugg, lunch, snacks, dinner, whatever. and then when i get home, BOOM! you're hit with a bucket of shit. you see, you think you know someone and then you realise you kinda dont at all? yea my hubris is trusting people too easily and ending up overly screwed. yea whatever. why is it that i get squeezed dry whenever theres a need for something and then POOF im like not even here when the problem's gone? its fucken stupid. and this sounds freakishly familiar. you see, i am what you call a "toilet companion".
yeaa. i spose the ego's been kinda inflated on my own accord. and yeaa. kinda reminds me of in sec sch when i thought i was like some super awesome lit student and then this new teacher came along n failed every single test i did. at first i thought she was just like biased or sumthin n then when i re-read my work i realised i was writing shitt. so yeaa. whats the morale of the story? i dont know and im too lazy to think of one, so lets just like use an old one. yea. ermm. like dont make a house out of sweets or something.
A levels in EIGHT days. actually 7, cz its past 12. seems like so much crap has been happening around me lately its as if this part of the universe is going through some sick phase. hahaha. righht. anyway, i dont f*cken care anymore. this last few days is all i have to make it or break it. kinda feels like im pushing a vase of the edge of a table but theres still time to save it from crackin. ah whatever. im tired. BYE.
brin bit this at ; 12:11 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
IM TIREDD.
today has been a tiring day of looking at kiddy clothes and eating veggies(ahem). not to mention extremely spasmatic as well due to certain reasons. i'll have tunku and LKY as company tomorrow during our mugging session. MANN. HEAD PAIN! SLEEEEPPPYYY. okayy. happy mugging peeps.
//.. that's me in the spotlight losing my religion.
brin bit this at ; 12:15 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Proud of my Broken Heart
by Emily Dickinson
Proud of my broken heart, since thou didst break it.
Proud of the pain, I did not feel till thee.
Proud of my night, since thou, with moons, dos't shake it.
Not to partake thy passion, -my humility
yeaa. im in some overly emo mood again.
brin bit this at ; 11:04 PM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Murphy's Law.
Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.
as flies to wanton boys are we to the gods.
SAVE ME.
brin bit this at ; 9:28 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
HAHHA THIS WAS FUN. ripped it off from son's blog. hahah. (:
Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward foreach question. Use the song title as the answer tothe question even if they don't make sense. You'll be surprised though.. NO CHEATING!
How are you feeling today?: Headspin (yeaa. the haze is making my head spin actually. haha)
Will you get far in life?: I Liked You Better Before You Were Naked (ERM. I WILL NOT BE A PORN STAR!! wth)
How do your friends see you?: Living In Your Letters (hmm. interesting.)
Will you get married?: One Way (OMG!! I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE A NUN FROM THE START! WAH DAMN SAD. HAHAHHA)
What is your best friend's theme song?: If You're Not the One (HAHHA. maria always used to sing this!)
What is the story of your life?: Heal Me, Im Heartsick (WTF.)
What was high school like?: Ladylike (HAHAHH! NO KIDDING! 10 yrs as a proud convent girl!)
How can you get ahead in life?: The Dolphin's Cry (erm. does this mean i need to work in the zoo or something. hahha)
What is the best thing about your friends?: Jamie (erm. no link. ok but the 2nd line goes "im so glad you're mine" hahhaha)
What is today going to be like?: Stand By Me (hmm.)
What is in store for this weekend?: So Long Sweet Summer (HAHHA how true. no more fun. only mugging.)
What song describes you?: Collide (HHAHAH. i knew i was romantic.)
To describe your grandparents?: An Honest Mistake (HAHHHA ok. "dont look at me that way, it was an honest mistake!" hahha thats the excuse i give them when i screw up stuff. HAHA)
How is your life going?: I Want You (ERM.)
What song will they play at your funeral?: Do What You Have To Do (HMM. i wouldnt mind! HAHA. qt suitable.)
How does the world see you?: You and Me ("cz its you and me and all of the peopleeee and i dont know why, i cant take my eyes off of youuu!" aww.)
Will you have a happy life?: Let Me Go (HAHA. i agree.)
What do your friends really think of you?: Sugar We're Going Down. (ERM. i will if i dont start mugging properly. HAHA)
Do people secretly lust after you?: Dont Go Away. (IS THIS AN INDICATION! AHAHA)
How can I make myself happy?: Anyone Anyone (omg im not DESPERATE LAHH.)
What should you do with your life?: Luxurious. (I AGREEE!! spend first, worry later!)
Will you ever have children?: But It's Better If You Do (LOLLLL!!! THANK YOU!)
`end.
btw, the HAZE IS KILLING. i could cut like shapes out of it. BLOODY STUPID HAZE. its like having 20000 ppl smoking around you, except you dont get high on the nicotine cz there isnt any! AH IRRITATING.
brin bit this at ; 2:27 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
ive been going to school these past few days in hopes that i might get some form of a wake up call.
and today i realised that the phone's been ringing for ages. only that i'd refused to answer it.
im not sad. im angry. at myself mostly.
no more distractions.
brin bit this at ; 12:00 PM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
firstly, CONGRATULATIONS MR HUI!! WE LOVE YOUUU!! (: you're an awesome teacher! (:
secondly, im super angry at myself. bloody irritated and overly dissapointed. irritatingirritatingirritating!!! i am angryyyy. angry angry angryyy. thats it. im pissed. im going to read lit essays. BYE.
brin bit this at ; 9:25 PM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
YAY DONE! (:
hiphiphoorayyayyycheerssswoohoo, etc, I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED STUPID HISTORY CORRECTIONS. 20+ pages of tears, sweat, toil and bad handwriting.
okayy! i tried on abt 4 new pens. and i realised my writing looks the neatest in ballpoint ink. so ballpoint ink it shall be for the Alevels. and i remember some teacher in SJC told me ballpoint ink is better so that if it rains and your paper gets wet, it wont look like one big black puddle (provided u used those liquid pens which i always use). HMM. i think my writing looks neater in blue too. and i have made a conscious effort to write BIGGER and space out my words. okayy. it still looks messy, bt i guess its slightly more readable! hahahha. ok. i will like just die if the markers cant read my writing n flunk me terribly for the alevels. GROAN.
im arguing with someone now. veryveryvery irritating although i dont know why. RIGHT, k nvm.
okayy. u noe usually green makes me very happy. hahah i think its a very therapeutic colour. but i think the green on my blog is making my eyes hurt. ok. i shall change the template again soon. yawn. n to all those ive yet ta link or change ur links, so sorry. will do it soon. im just being a bum as usual. hurhur. k. gtg. gotta read thru my history notes before i go to sleep. BURRBYE.
//.. sitting silent wearing sunday's best.
brin bit this at ; 11:31 PM
omfggg.
my finger nail hurts. my 2nd finger on my right hand. AHHH DAMN PAIN.
and all because of stupid history corrections! AHHHH. 20+ pages of scribbling. okayy, i tried to improve my writing but after a while my finger got numb so it went back to normal again. groan.
okayy. im going to go grumble to myself and then start on s.e.a corrections. burrbye.
brin bit this at ; 2:13 AM
